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February 11, 2005
Februarium Day One: Who You Love


I came across this fun meme at Minerea's today, and though I'm a day late and a dollar short to be listed on the main page, I decided it sounded like a fun thing to do, and am therefore playing The Home Game. Plus, it would basically force me to start bloody writing this month! So, anyway, the topic for February 10th is: Who you love. Enjoy!

Who You Love: This is a love letter to anyone. Or no one in particular.


Dear Brandon,

It's hard to believe we've been together for over twenty years! I remember the day you came into my life: Christmas Day 1983. You were soft and fuzzy and totally adorable!

I bought you a black bow-tie, let you wear my fancy hats, even pierced your ear with a gold teddy bear earring. You didn't even cry. You were so brave! Somehow we lost that pretty little earring; I never did find another one. Oh, well.

Now you have a little sweater and matching hat my grandmother knitted for you to wear during the cool winter months, and a tiny (actually infant size) E.N.U.F. Internationale sweatshirt for the summer. You are still the fashion plate!

For the past twenty-six years, Brandon, you've been there for me, though good times and bad. We got through high school together, you came to college with me, and though I set you aside temporarily when D came into my life, as soon as he was gone, you were right there for me again. You listened patiently when I ranted and raved. You never criticized or judged me. You gave me a fuzzy shoulder to cry on, and let me squeeze you tight. You were a comforting, if silent partner and friend.

Though the years have past, and your once-fluffy, synthetic fur is permanently matted, and your stuffing just isn't as fluffy, you still bring me comfort through the night. You fit perfectly in my arms: your back pressed up against my chest, my arm wrapped around you, and my chin resting on top of your head. If people tell me they think it's odd that a grown woman still sleeps with a teddy bear, well, Brandon, my darling, I tell them I don't care. It could be worse, after all: I could have a Boyfriend Pillow! Gah!

I love you, Brandon, now and forever!



for what it's worth,
lmj (alias hez)